Few people know my whole story and all the things I've been through. I got very hard times, and I'm not talking about problems like my bf cheating on me, or like losing some friends...even if they did happen, ive been through harder times. And I'm still here.23 years old, being sometimes highly depressed but always finding a way to stop being that much depressed and looking for a way to get myself out of my problems or just dealing with them before getting into big depression again and so on. I know I'm going to keep having probems, but i'm still hoping my life would get better and that i would find my own definition of what happiness is.

That's what keeps me alive I guess. I don't want to be one of the people who got a shitty life. I can't be one who got one of the best life ever though cause my life has been a real mess for years now and even before I was born, there were already problems about me...I could only be one of the most incredible people,the ones who worked so hard to get a good life even after dealing with so many hard things that they succeeded to get what they wanted...That's what I want..Succeed but still knowing how sick life is...but being still aware of all the misfortunes and to have actually worked hard to be happy in the way I want to, I'm glad in some ways I didnt get the happiness for free, without any effort...It's good to make efforts to get what we deserve. We learn lot of things from it, even our mistakes are good to take. Get proud of ourselves because we would have given the best of us before we die. Pride. And, if you think of it, isn't it the best life ever?

It is a long path though.

But even with all the bad things I've been through for so many years, would I actually get to be lucky enough to be happy?